Update

Maintain my wait measurement at 112cm.

Had a bad few days eating wise - did exercise.

Mentally - not doing so good - can't understand why each time that I start making progress I seem to sabotage myself.

Need to some introspection but not allow myself to in wallow in self-pity.

More good news

Went to the doctor yesterday - the medical centre was running a special program for overweight people - So the doctor weighed me in and I am down another 1 kg - now weigh 107kg! YAY
took blood test and then listen to a talk by a nutritionist and personal trainer.

Next weigh in is on 28 November and a one-one with the nutritionist.

so I will continue with my measuring tape and at the end of the month I will have a weigh in.
Good news for the budget cause I just can't afford to buy a scale right now.

Update

Hi

I have lost 2cm YAY - this measuring thing is not so bad.

Struggling to get my water drinking done but I will persevere.#

Happy with the fact that I have exercised everyday since last Tuesday.

By the end of today I would have walked over 5km (over 3miles I think).

really happy that my daughter is enjoying making healthy choices and the fact that some of her clothes are getting to big for her!

Goals for the next 4 Days:

1. Watch Water intake
2. increase exercise

reward: hair mask ( I have bought it already!!)

Mind of matter

I have being undergoing an inner struggle with myself. fighting for a focus - fighting to find a plan I can hold onto. fighting the negativity that wants to creep in 0 even as write the post I am still feeling directionless but at the same time I know that i cannot continue to sit on the side lines of life - watching it pass me by. I cannot left go of my dreams and goals - to be healthy, fit and slim.

Thank goodness I have not put on the 5kg that I lost but now it is time to move forward again.

I still don't have my own scale but I wont let that be a stumbling block - I do have a tape measure.
Current: 114cm
Goal: 88cm

Yesterday i walked for 30min.

For the next 4 Days:
Physically:
I will exercise for 30min
Drink 4 glasses of water
Start keeping a food journal

Mentally:
20min relaxation exercises
Read a section from a mental/spiritual enhancing book

Reward myself with long hot bath and a facial.

Update

I am in limbo at the moment, trying to sort out my head - trying to get back into the game. That song from High School Musical 1 pops into my head every now and again.

Taken on some book therapy and gone onto anti-depressants.

My daughter is doing well on her exercise program and she eating better. some of the clothes that were getting tight and fitting her. I find that I am putting up a front so that I don't get my family down - I am making sure she has fun exercising and i am putting good food on the table (the problem is that I am applying that to myself).

There is another title of a book I saw that is screaming at me - Get out of your head and into your life.

Ideals are like stars

Ideals are like stars;you will not succeed in touching them with your hands.But like the seafaring man on the desert of waters,you choose them as your guides;and following themyou will reach your destiny."
*Carl Schurz*

Inspiration for the week

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.


Mother Teresa